Memories

Memories
Quiet thoughts come floating down
And settle softly in my mind
Like golden brown mandazi, crunchy and sweet,
I touched them and they burst apart with
Sweet memories of my dear one.

Sweet memories
Of laughing eyes, tearing eyes, chat moments
And quiet nights and gentle days with you
but until someone interrupted.
Oh no its a good one.
An interruption I dint expect.
A good interruption? Maybe!

So will I have to live without you?
I thought you were my world, my soul, my all
But maybe not. It was too soon. But "How do I live, breath, sleep, wake up without you?"
"How do I survive without the laughter, the tears, the jokes, the calls, the messages?
Memories
Memories
Memories
Sweet memories

No, my dear, no!
I dint mean to hurt you.
I dint mean to break away from you.
But we gotta keep the rules. We have to declare boundaries.
"Which ones?" Am scared! I dont wanna loose you in my life.
Feelings, nothing more than feelings, trying to forget my feelings of love. Teardrops rolling down on my face, trying to forget my feelings of love. Did I over do it, did I show more than I should?

Each time I slept, tears would drop down my eyes. I dint tell him I loved him. I dint tell him I had feelings for him. But now I have. Then he said, too little - too late. I already have someone in my life. Feelings, for all my life I'll feel it. I wish I've never met you, boy. I wish you'll never come again in my mind. I wanna cry, I wanna weep, I need a place to wail. I need a place to jump and stop living.

I dont wanna be lonely, but yet I dont wanna send the wrong impression. Did my memory fail me? Memories, memories, why dont they go? Why wil they reccur? Why will you leave?
Feelings, feelings like I've never lost you and feelings like I've never have you again in my heart.
But just why do you always demand to hear from me and I hardly get to hear anything from you? Precaution! did I hear that word! Yes, I have to be careful not to hurt her.

Oh! yeah then I cease to exist.

I will survive! I hold my head high!
I will get to love again.
I dont like bad endings.